Too much has been going on lately. i just...need to rant somewhere before i explode >.< i feel like a monster...i have a lot of things to be grateful for , like my best friend jackie, my loving boyfriend, my good friends, some family...but i still feel as if something isnt right.The stress is too much for me to take. i cant stand to be around people anymore...school is torture. i wish i could drop out, but i wont. I've lost all sense of who i am. it's like being happy..doesn't come to me as easily as it used to. My past continues to haunt me and i suffer for what i've done wrong every day...I've morphed into this girl i don't understand.i look in the mirror and i see pale skin, angry eyes and the face of someone who just doesn't give a shit anymore.....and if you are reading this,for whatever reason, no; im not crazy. im just...a lil tapped in the head.